Let’s try this one again! So, full transparency moment: I struggle with consistency…

Hey Boothangs! Last year, I started a series of emails that I didn’t finish after getting COVID, then using that as an excuse to not press in and through even after I healed completely. So, this is where I am. And this is what I need from you. If you’re willing, keep reading.

Let’s try this one again! So, full transparency moment: I struggle with consistency. As much as I want to put an ‘ED’ on the struggle, that just wouldn’t be where I am honestly. It’s where I want to be, where I will be, where I visualize and WILL be in the near future, but it’s just not where I am right now. I truly believe in working as if you are already in the season that you are praying for while still being open and transparent about where you currently are.

Here I am – naked (vulnerable, open, honest, baring it all) and willing to let go of the shame that the enemy would want me to hide in. I don’t have it all together, and while I know that most people would say at the end of this sentence that ‘none of us do’, that’s not what I’m doing here. I’m not deflecting it, normalizing it, or looking at other’s shortcomings to make myself feel better in this moment.

This isn’t about you. It’s about me.
This is where I am, and I want it to be clear that this is not where I plan to stay. I realized at the beginning of this year that I wasn’t afraid of failing – I was afraid of succeeding. My prayers weren’t ‘God what if this doesn’t work’, my whispers were, ‘God what happens when it does?’.
I’ve always known I was called, I’ve always known that God would turn every heartache, pain and trauma into a platform of His glory, restoration, redemption and triumph for THE ENTIRE WORLD to see – and that scared the obedience out of me…(you’ll get that on the way home).
So here’s where I need your help. I’m done playing small, I’m done walking in partial victory and partial power because the weight of my calling scares even me. So I’m working, I’m looking at my inconsistencies and insecurities full frontal and saying, ‘Not today, not tomorrow, not EVER again. ‘
No more excuses, no more reasons to not give it my all. So I want you, yes you reading this to be my accountability partner. The more people, the more power. John Maxwell and Napoleon Hill state that the best way to ensure you accomplish a goal is to announce it to the world, then allow them to hold you accountable to getting it accomplished. If you don’t announce it, it’s easy to pretend that wasn’t the goal or make excuses for not showing up and playing full out.

So here it is: over the next few weeks, I am going to share with you my vision and goals for 2022, halfway through the year – and I want you to hold me accountable to seeing them all come to fruition by the time the ball drops. And here’s the thing – if I don’t accomplish something, it won’t be from inconsistency or insecurity – it will be because I’ve allowed God room to have His ways in my plans. But as far as it is up to me…

I’m ready Lord, send me.

Can I count on your support? Your accountability? Your cheerleading? Your tough love when I need it? Let me know, Friend.

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