Psalm (not a Psalm but read Isaiah 55)
DOUBT. A little word that does big damage in our faith. Today’s lesson is Holy-Spirit Changed (my term for when you have something planned and the Spirit comes in and changes everything around). Transparency and in return Accountability moment: this is a weak spot in my armor. This is something that I struggle with almost daily, and that I have to constantly ‘take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ’ (1 Corinthians 10:5). I don’t doubt that God CAN do anything, for I know that He is fully capable, but I doubt that He WILL do some things. I struggle to believe that I’m worthy, that I’m qualified, that I am even capable of being used in any significant way for the Kingdom. I doubt that if I give something to Him that He will give it back to me in the way that I want it, or if He will give it back at all. I struggle to believe that I’m capable of doing everything that He is calling me to do, and even in knowing that I am not capable alone, I struggle to believe that He will help me because I’ve messed up so many times. I struggle to believe that all the people that are looking to me for discipleship and leadership and to bring them a word, will see the doubt that I struggle with and count me as unworthy and unfit to lead. I didn’t say any of it is a logical doubt, but I still struggle with it. Many days I feel like Thomas and ask to put my hand in His side and see the scars in His hands, before I can fully believe what He is saying. My struggle is today your lesson.
Doubt is one of the biggest weapons of the enemy because he knows he can’t change the nature and truth of Who God is, but if he can just get you to not believe it, then he can change your VIEW of Who God is. This is the trick that worked on Eve. The devil knew that He couldn’t convince Eve that God wasn’t speaking directly to her and Adam. Nor could He get her to believe that God wasn’t giving them specific directions (guiding and ordering their steps), but he saw that if he could get her with the details, if he could get her to question her UNDERSTANDING of what God said, then he could exercise doubt and influence over her. Eve knew what God had said, but she started to question the ‘how’ of it. The enemy convinced her that God was holding out on her and that the only thing that she didn’t have, was the one thing she couldn’t live without it. With just that little seed of doubt, mankind fell.
When I allow God to take back His rightful place on the throne of my life and my heart, He reminds me that ‘no weapon formed against me shall prosper, and every tongue that rises up against me shall be condemned’ Isaiah 54:17. Then he clarifies even more that the weapon of doubt shall not prosper, and the tongue of my enemy, my adversary, the accuser of my soul shall be condemned. Then the peace that surpasses every thought (even mine and yours of doubt), shall continually guard (protects, safeguards, puts up a barrier against outside influences) my heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7. Oh, what peace.
When you feel like you are unworthy to lead, or that you have too many doubts and shortcomings to lead anyone at the place that you are in your life- I will share what the Lord comforts me with. 1 Samuel 22, David is running from Saul and King Achish of Gath and takes refuge in a cave. When it seemed like there was no hope in sight for David, I’m sure he was experiencing some serious doubt and fear of what was next, and may have even questioned His calling–something incredible happens. God sends 400 men for him to lead- men who were desperate, in debt and discontent- and DAVID BECAME THIER LEADER. This rested so powerfully in my spirit. While David was running for life and struggling to keep his head above water, God saw fit to send him men that were in an even more fragile state of mind than he, to lead. God obviously saw something in David that he didn’t see in himself. God is peering into your (and mine) heart and saying, ‘there’s more in you, I PUT more in you’. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that someone else needs what’s inside of me, MORE than I need to hide it in a cave. In leading these men, David became accountable for their safety and had to push aside his doubts of suitability. God used leadership to push David out of wallowing in pity and into working for His people. My challenge for you is the same challenge that God has to give me more often than I will admit. ‘Get up, get out of your cave, and return to praise!’ (1 Samuel 22:5 Don’t stay in the stronghold. Leave and return to the land of Judah- Judah means praise.)
Matthew 21:21-22 I assure you; if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you tell this mountain, ‘Be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ it will be done. And if you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer. FAITH WITHOUT DOUBT MOVES MOUNTAINS. I know I have mountains that need to be moved and I’m daily strengthening my faith for that. What mountains do you doubt He will move?
I didn’t intend to share any of this, but God has different plans. If exposing my brokenness and need for a renewed mind daily will in turn spark a renewing of just one more believer’s- then God’s purpose has been accomplished. Be blessed. Be healed. Be made whole and set free.